The nurse told me every time they tried to wake him, he would groggily look at them and say, "You're not pretty enough to be my wife!". He would fall back into his dopey sleep, and they would try to wake him again, and he would say the same thing. Had he thought that it was going to be me waking him up each time? The nurses giggled, and were not offended.
I shook him awake, and he looked at me and smiled. He was dopey! He was telling the nurse how he might invent a program for her computer to make it work better, just before she stepped out of the curtain. I told him what he had said to the nurses, and he was embarrassed a bit, so he said loudly, through the curtain, "you are pretty enough to be my wife". I could hear her giggling behind the curtain.
I learned two things about what my husband is actually thinking, without his filter. The first is that he is a pretty big nerd. He holds back a lot of technical details and geeky computer inventions (my 5th grade son also has this trait). I'm grateful for his nerd-i-ness, as it puts food on the table, and he is well rounded and social. I'm also grateful I'm not responsible for all those details in his head.
The second thing I learned, was really just a reminder. Silas thinks I am the most beautiful person he knows. Compared to the other women in the doctor's office, if I were comparing objectively, which is a terrible thing to do, there was no winner. I might be the winner, in that I was not in hospital scrubs, but my 'mom uniform', which might be a 6 out of 10 rather than a 5.
|How Silas views Tyson|
|What I actually look like.|